In a letter written in her new memoir, Unfiltered: No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me, with excerpts published by The Daily Mail, actress Lily Collins puts it all out on the table concerning her dad and exactly how she feels about him today.
“We all make choices and, although I don’t excuse some of yours, at the end of the day we can’t rewrite the past,” she penned. “I’m learning how to accept your actions and vocalise how they made me feel. I accept and honour the sadness and anger I felt toward the things you did or didn’t do, did or didn’t give me.”
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At a point, she addresses her father’s divorce from his third wife, Orianne Cevey, and how the split influenced her battle with eating disorders. “Not only did I start viewing myself differently physically, but I began limiting my happiness by controlling my eating habits,” she revealed. “I couldn’t handle the pain and confusion surrounding my dad’s divorce, and I was having a hard time balancing being a teenager with pursuing two different grown-up careers.”
“Many of my deepest insecurities stem from these issues with my dad,” the actress admitted in the book.
“I forgive you for not always being there when I needed and for not being the dad I expected,” she wrote. “I forgive the mistakes you made. And although it may seem like it’s too late, it’s not. There’s still so much time to move forward.”